I am not your typical poet and have never studied in writing poetry but this is what I love about my poems because it is not influenced by any other but my own life and experiences. I started writing at a very young age for comfort and this soon led to my only happiness. It was my only way to let any pain out as I never cry in front of others and I wanted to bring beauty to my life rather than disgust. ‘Underneath my Soul’ started around the age of 13 and I would write a poem nearly everyday therefore when choosing the poems to add to my compilation, it was extremely hard but I feel the chosen ones tell my story in the best way possible.
Part 1 - 33 poems (growing up) It reflects on my deepest thoughts, imagination and my words are strongly affected from differences in my local town of where I grew up. Part 2 - 22 poems (becoming an adult) It shows what transition I have gone through and you can see by my writing that many pains are gone yet my heart is troubled. 55 poems later and it makes my painful existence in which I struggled with become beautiful in my eyes. It can be said that my life was more beautiful than what I ever thought as a child but it took these pains and misplacements to figure this out.
I wish for readers to interpret my poems and life in whichever way they want as no word is written in stone and can be morphed into the readers mind with there own imagination. The purpose in exposing and showing my writings in such a way is to make sure that the young and the old do not feel alone and that my life is not so different from others. We all struggle wether you are rich or poor, have a small or large home, come from the east or west and have a mum or dad.
I have always felt that little bit different and as a child we all want to fit in but now as an adult, I can see more clearly and love to be the one who does not fit into any category and in this moment of realisation became a new me with my own inspiration.
I don’t want to fit in with every other writer, like any other sheep writing lines. I would rather fly like the lonely eagle and write how I want to write.
If you would like to know any part of my life from a specific poem from ‘Underneath my Soul’. Please feel free to write to me and I will share all. Thank you Yolanda De Iuliis